Sup,
So I am bored, a little stressed at work and i've picked up a habit I quit ten years ago. I've started smoking cigarettes again.... after I swore them off. It started off with me bumming a bogie (nickname for a cigarette) frm a co-worker one stressful morning at work. That was about a month ago. Now i'm buying packs of bogies because I didn't want to bum them from co-workers. I notice by being smoker puts me in a homogenous group of other smokers. I realize, we are forced to smoke outside most of the time in public places, business, and the like. I'm not complaining about having to go outside because I think non-smokers have a right NOT to be exposed to other people's unhealthy habits.
I must admit, the habit of smoking is a turn off for me.... I mean after smoking a bogie, my mouth feels and tastes like I've licked an ashtray as do my hands. I don't like the way the smoke lingers on my clothers and my hair. I even had one admirer at work tell me he thought a woman smoking a cigarette is a major turn off. So almost everytime I smoke one at work, I wash my hands twice and spray myself with body mist. I do think for myself and for those have a tendency to invade my personal space. I've found myself apololgizing and putting people on notice if I have to come near them and i've just finished smoking a bogie.
I also have a gripe with the cost of being smoker. I increase certain health risks, to purchase them is usually $7.50 on average, I also feel obligated to share with other smokers when they've run out. I've tried bringing just a few with me so that I don't smoke too many, but then I have to bum one or two, to get me through the day. In the time that i've been smoking I realize, I need to quit and I need to quit soon. I think I will set a deadline for me to stop. I quit turkey once and I will do it again. This time, I will pray that I stop for good. Take this journey with me. July 31!

ciao