At last, I've come back here to write something.

In the early hours of 5 April (Saturday), Kanta died a sudden at hospital.

I got a phone call from the vet at 2:30 am. which said that unfortunately Kanta passed away and asked us to come to the hospital at 9 am.
He was hospitalized on Friday with pneumonia so when I received the phone call, I thought he'd died of pneumonia, but it wasn't that.

Next morning, my husband and I headed to the hospital, feeling totally depressed. There were three doctors-Professor Kadosawa, Kanta's attending vet and the vet on night duty. The professor explained what had happened to my dog in a slow drawl.
It was like this: Kanta had been in stable condition in hospital and the vet on night duty saw him walking in the cage at about 1:00 am, but the next time he saw Kanta at 1:30, he wasn't breathing, which means the vet found him dead. It could have been a heart attack or some kind of attack, he said.

I feel very sorry for him as he died alone..
I was always telling him, 'There's nothing to worry about, Kanta. I'll be by your side when your last time has come.' But I couldn't keep my word. Sorry, Kanta. I love you and thank you for being with me for twelve years.