Description : Let me re-say something about myself, I make this blog just to remember myself of the feeling I have on one boy, there is no binding, not due when it is gonna end, but i would keep writing here about how and how much I feel for him....
I am the first child of the family, big girl with intention to make good and do good for my family.
I love to write as it make me feel better after I could releasing what is inside my brain and my thought and my heart...
Not only spending time hurting myself by thinking of one boy who I know I could only watch his back, for long time, there is another sadness for me .. for us!
While shopping with my mom in KK on last Sun, 23. I was told that our nephew passed away in motorbike accident!!! Shocked.... sad .. and we headed back home immediately. 'Mos', son of Franz (my uncle and my boss) was put in a coffin already. Everybody cries, his parents & little Alissa !! I was shocked more than feeling like to cry, when seeing Chantee cried, I had to hold it because I feel like I needed to be strong! The coffin was placed in front of the house, next to his decorated Christmas tree.. I really don't like this scene.
There are things I have learned (again); different culture, different belief, different attitudes, .. there was shouting & crying & discussing again and again over the funeral ceremony... and I was asked to read the farewell to my nephew at the funeral. Not difficult at all, but just don't cry out....
The ceremony is tomorrow, it is hard for everyone to handle especially the parents & relatives...
Hey Pooh , I am sorry to have read about the loss of your family member, I know it had to have been hard.... especially when this holiday is about family and rejoicing. Here is an excerpt from a poem by Brian Quinn its called "Hope." When all about you is black with gloom, And all you feel is pending doom. When your bones are racked with grim despair - When every breath is a gasp for air. Keep on going, though you need to grope, For around the bend is a ray of hope. May God watch over you and your family at this time and evermore
