So now something complitley different, maybe dark side of me...things from my past that are still on my mind. And let me tell u it is not even a boy...IT IS A GIRL!!! U know that butterfly u feel when u feel inlove? Feels good doesnt it? Let me tell u my feeling was kind of like that when I meet this girl. Ready to be crazy if u wake her in the middle of the night, when they are all gone she is just starting...always smiling, no matter what...I finally found someone to spend my time with...just having fun, not wondering what may happen tomorrow. And I loved that, there was no drama, just pure fun...everytime we went out, even for a coffe. So, what happend? Jaleousy, of cours...for the first time I felt she had that feeling, always hideing it and pretend to be cool. But it just had to come out at last. See her ruining that fabolous picture of her in my head and acting like any other girl just made me treat her same as any other girl. This is my conffesion, I always have something 'smart' to say when it comes to relationships. And she really liked this guy, started to act silly because of him. As always, I just couldnt help myself letting her know she humiliate herself for a guy. Here I am, so insensitive and thinking that everyone should feel that way...And there was of course a third friend who just couldn't take the fact that somebody is just happy, so she started to making stories about me. Talking to my 'friends' telling how much she cant stand me. I moved away, as I always do when it comes to shit. But something was always there on my mind, not letting me forget about this one person who changed his opinion about me listening to her shit. So I did what I never do, I came and apologize for things I didn't do and those I did but just never had told him. And it was just a perfect moment, moment when he told me he realized how fake was she...just in much harder way. And still today, she is akting like an innocent queen saying hy, how are u? How is everything going, we should go to LA together maybe? That little crazy sweety it still somewhere on my mind and I dont wanna bealieve she is gone, so I call her when I got here. I guees I still cant let her go, till I dont sit and talk to her about things I felt at the time. Felt just bad for things I didnt do and said, but never had strenght to call her and tell her the truth. Now I just hate her because she is akting like nothing happened with me, but talking behind my back!