Sup,
I want to jump right into this entry... I want to talk about old relationships and funny men. I am totally lost. Okay. I admit it... I am totally flipping lost. I have told John to call me when he is emotionally ready to work on US. If there was an 'us'? I mean, is a year really enough to get over one's wife... maybe he realized, he really couldn't live without her. Maybe he really is having problems with his child's mother... maybe I should listen to my own advice and not GO BACKWARDS. I always say that to my girlfriends who try it. I haven't really been in this position before and now I know why. Its rarely a good idea to go back to a romantic relationship that didn't work out the first time. I should have kept John strictly as a friend when he came back into my life. This time around, it will have to be he who seeks me out. I deleted his phone # from my cell phone and I refuse to send him and email or use an old text to communicate with him.
Everyday, I find something funny about a man. One of bosses wants to have an affair with me, but I won't give in... he's married and have never been a home-wrecker... I have no intentions of starting now. The affair business is funny.
Another funny man, is the one who sits behind me. He claims he is 'taken' yet he likes to flirt... ladies, trust me on this, he so freaking sexy, so the temptation is there. The other day he touch my hand and let it linger there... I felt so flush and I let his hand stay there til he moved. I had to tell myself he didn't mean to do it, but how could he not tell he was touching me. Funny!
My last example of funny is the guy who used to sit right next to me. He is above average in looks, somewhat funny, highly sarcastic, and has on several ocassions, made it known that he would like to be my "friend with benefits." I am not known to have slept with my friends. I've turned almost all of them down. I mean there is a difference between having a friend, having a sexual relationship, or one night stand. I am not sure how I feel about the latter. I mean, I stil have this notion in my head that a call is trashy if she sleeps with a guy she doesn't know.
The other part to this thing is that the guy doesn't have a lot of rap for me when I call him, but when we are in person, he has almost too much to say. I just don't know what to think or what to do. Funny.

ciao