I still seem a bit up & down emotionally & following a debate (let,s call it) with my other half. It had been brewing long enough & eventually the air turned blue. Were okay now as its all been brushed under the carpet but me being me it still weighs heavy on my mind & i dont quite feel my normal self. I don't entirely blame him as naturally it takes two, i am i know not the easiest person. My kids warned him i would be hard work. My touble is i let everything ride & it boils up inside me till i go into overload & i erupt like a huge volcano hurting everone & everything in my path with my sharp tounge & braisen attitude. Then when i start to come down in the days that follow i punish myself constantly & feel worhless. Which i know i am not. I should at that point remind myself of my goodpoints & all the things that i have achieved like my kids for excample. They are by far the best thing i have ever done.

Dietwise im not really trying but i have little or no appettite & when i do i am sticking to salad & fruit so its not all bad maybe when i get to the hospital i will weigh a bit lighter & my doctor will be happy