Emotions are shot to bits if i am not getting a fit of the giggles i am bursting into tears. The letter came for me to go into hospital i have about a month. August 23rd im having my womanhood removed sort of. Full hysterectomy ovaries the lot. Im apprehensive will it mean a total personality change??? Some people might think thats good given how i have been of late! Think HE is more worried it will make me FRIDGID. Probablly not really but he has mentioned it! I'm no fun anyway just now always in pain or tired out. Twenty weeks ago my doctor said lose at least 28 pounds AND HAVE I??? NO I HAVE NOT!! Truth is i dont help myself & there are strawberries & icecream in the kitchen just now that are calling out to me there is no hope. I have to eat its my only comfort when all i really want is a cuddle MEN"""
Routine gone to seed with pub meals, late night snacks, cream teas & so on. I feel bloated & as though iv'e gone up three dress sizes. I only have myself to blame still i keep shovelling excessive amounts of food in. Well we have company for a couple of weeks ( my mans daughter & partner) so i blame it on them. You have to put on a good spread, back to the bread & water next week when they have gone Ha ha Not!
Compensating by way of exersise if you can count trailing round various towns & country village. You could say it was walking it off if it wasn,t for all the tempting tea shops along the way.
If i win the lottery i am sending myself to one of those health farms where they will feed me on lettuce for a month & retrain my system. Thats if i win !!!!
On the up side -------I'm on the mend dodgy tummy feeling better ! the car is mended & my lads have walked straight into new jobs so a few things there to be gratefull for.
On the downside-------The kithen tap woulddn't turn off water water everywhere took all day for the plummer to come & fix it.
Heavy rain all day AGAIN , my other half sez its because i killed a water beetle It was an accident !! when i picked him up to put out of the window his leg fell off it must have been the shock perhaps he had a heart attack. What could i do ??
I have t be excused as the results of my MRI scan showed some brain damage Yeah!! apparently from an impact to the skull that will be when i was 11 yrs old & got run over. went in a coma for ten days. Fancy it's took that long to find out. at least i know now why i keep getting migraines & have been for most of my life.
Who said detoxes & healthy eating are suppossed to be good for you? Well after a couple of days green salads, fruit & smoothies etc i seem to have been spending the majority of my day sat on the loo & throwing up the other end, now i feel worse than i ever have. No rosy cheeks & spurts of energy i am totally washed out & could sleep for a week. Perhaps it wasn't the health kick maybe iv'e got a virus.
My car which died recently is booked in for friday an expense i could well do without but i am lost without her.
My two sons got laid off from their jobs in the building trade due to lack of work with mortgages to pay for & families to look after i feel sad for them having worked since leaving school they are now on the scrap heap. What is life coming to!
Well thats my little moan for the day so im off for a nicesoak in the bath before bed.
Well thats me & the old man totally worn out, Earlier we waved good bye to our dear little grandkids as their mother came to collect them following a night out. She rang me just awhile ago to say thanx & ask what we had done to them as they had been flat out snoring since she picked them up. Pity they did'nt exersise some of that practise when they were here as at the first crack of dawn & the birds only just singing they decide to climb into our bed with us. Which would have been nice had they all cuddled up & gone back to sleep. But no! Half an hour of jiffling & jumping followed by fits of giggles they convinced us to get up & they had'nt stopped since. Weve played games done colouring & even played in the tent outside. We have now been left with a mini war zone to clear up but regardless it has been fun & we do adore them all.
Disregard my previous statement of happiness cos always something comes along to spoil it. just as it's all going so good little demons creep in & upset lifes balance. Love the move the house is great but those previous tennants were total mingers. You would think crayon marks on every single wall throughout would be enough to contend with but the vomit & dog poo they left was totally uncalled for. Next my mobile phone starts to act up , the computer keeps having fits and logging it's self off. But far far worse there we are cruising along quite happily today in the car when it decides to burst into flames. Well almost! There was the most dreadful smell & mountains of smoke. Roadside rescue & towed home what else could he do. That just about topped off the day & is an expense we could well do without. Then as if that's not enough we learn three of our friends have lost weight & apparently looking & feeling great. it's enough to make me want a bacon sandwhich really don't know where i am going wrong. I would go to bed but i hate the blo%*y mirror in the bedroom the person in there needs to sort herself out!!
