Description : Well, who know's if my life will be interesting to anyone, its certainly has its moments for me! So, here we go......My thoughts, fears and dreams..... Enjoy!
God, work is really quiet, its driving me mad! Had few enquiries in and couple of quotes, but certainly nothing of any substance! I wonder if loads of people are using up some holidays....
Speaking of which, have couple of days off tagged onto the Easter break, woop woop! Going to decorate the bedroom! I live life on the edge! So only have to work Monday and Tuesday, which I think I could get used too!
I think I want to win the lotto! Would be bit tricky, as I dont play it! Ohhhhhhhh what I could do with few million! (sorry, one is just not enough these days!). Big house, with lots of land for lots of dogs! Nice car, DB9 would do me nicely! Money in accounts for the siblings so they can have house each when they are old enough, and pay off Beckys mortgage or buy her a bigger house....(Andy's sister with the twins!) And TRAVEL, ohhhhhhhhhh how I would travel! All the places in this world that I need to visit still!! Such a big world and so little time to see it all....Machu Pechu, Rio Carnival, Grand Canyon, Rain forrest, want to see Gorillas in the wild, oh the list is endless! Ok, I know, dream over!
Anyway, back to the real world. Off swimming tonight! Should only have to do about 60 lengths to bring me to 200 for the week over two sessions! Hopefully I will have lost some weight this week, have been much better and hopefully the period should have helped! Fingers crossed!
Its such a lovely day today, the sun is shining, and its actually quite mild! I love days like this! They have even been cutting the grass here at work! Now that does make it feel summery....Everyone is just in a lighter mood when its like this I think. Bring on the BBQ's!!!!!
Oops, sorry, I have not written on here for a while! I am not very good as this blog thing am I!!
Ok...ummmm, news........
Feel really guilty, as I have not been swimming yet this week, it's only one session that I have missed, but I feel dreadful about it! But I have just been soooooo tired again this week! What on earth is wrong with me?! Have started period though, so that may answer it a bit. I am definately going tonight though, I like Wednesday's as there is no clubs in so the whole pool is free! (I think I need to get out more you know people!)....
Bit pissed off with my best pal Carla...She's not been in contact all week...I know she's busy at work, but how long does it take to wizz a quick text over? I always make the effort! And she still hasn't let me know about the ball that is at the end of May, which is little irritating, as will need to make an appointment to see Paula (lady who made my wedding dress) to get a ball gown made/hired. Hey ho, will send her an e-mail this morning!
My other best pal is pregnant. This, however exciting for me and the rest of us pals, is NOT good news! She has only been with new boyfried for 6 months, and she has only been divorced for less than a year!! She is obviously VERY thrown by this. But the thing is, I know it was a mistake (although school girl one at that) and its not how they wanted to take their relationship and all that, but she does keep moaning about it and woe is me all the time! But quite frankly, having un-protected sex and withdrawing lets face it is a bloody stupid thing to have done! Even a teenager would know that is not a sure fire way not to get up the duff....and then, what I can't understand is WHY she didnt take the morning after pill!!? Surely if you really didn't want kids at that point in your life you would have done anything not to get preggers?! Ok, we have all been carried away with the passion of the moment at some point, but we have all then dealt with the consequences like adults! I mean, he is still going through a nasty divorce himself, with a house that is not selling, and is now living with Lisa in her house so they are paying two mortgages!!!!!
I think there must be something wrong with me, I just dont seem to want children! Some moments I think I do, then I think about whats envolved and I think OH MY WORD NOOOOOOOO... My pal has just had number two! She's a great mum, really into all these clubs with the children and all that, home baking, tea on the table for hubby etc etc, but she is lucky enough not to have to work! I would HAVE to go back to work, I earn more than hubby anyway, we just could not afford to have a baby...I know you can never afford it, but you know what I mean. I like being able to treat myself to clothes or meals out etc when we want. But I also know how desperately my hubby would love a baby. He would love children, and as he is the end of the family line, to be honest, the pressure is really on us to keep it going! Sadly, we dont really produce boys in our family, its girls all the way really! Ohhhh, who knows, when my back is sorted, maybe I will have the overwhelming urge to re-produce!
Rights, better head off......
Roll on next week, have couple of days off before Easter, so will get whole 5 days of with hubby! Maybe we can practice the baby making thing!!! wohoooo wink wink!
Love ya all xxxxxxxxxxxx
PS, just read last entry, no chance of that lay in Saturday morning last week, Mr P's trouser snake was well and truely awake at 7.20am!!!!! rahhhhh
Not feeling quite as tired today, although was rather a struggle to get outta bed this morning, was curled up with both the cats and hubby and was sooo cozy!
Blimey it was manic at work yesterday! So far today its DEAD!
Endured dinner with mother in law last night, only had to bite my tongue about 8 times, which is rather good for her really! If she goes on about the fact she has lost 12 pounds much more and how none of her clothes fit anymore etc, I think I might lose it! She should try three and half stone and then tell me about no clothes fitting!!!!!!
Hmmm, plans for weekend then......Well, swimming tonight from work, then tomorrow, would like a little lay in I think as Andy is off too. Then might head to the coast and have wander about...Need to do some housework and washing, and think rugby is on, so will need to be in the house for that! Sunday, umm, no real plans as yet, may spend bit more time at Billy's bungalow sorting more stuff out..... So all in all, nothing very exciting, but then after that we are out for the next three Sat's! Very unusal for us!!!!
Hmmm, roll on lunch time! I have just had my toast and a cereal bar and I am still hungry! What the hell is wrong with me!?? Tape worm maybe hehe......
Well if anything exciting happens today will write later!
Urgh, surely there is more to life than this!!!! PLEASE!???
I am sooooooooooooooooo tired today. I can hardly keep my eyes open.
Think I am gunna have to make a doctors appointment. I am always tired at the moment, keep getting light headed, little blured vision....and as so my boobs, they are really sore! Generally dont feel great. Maybe my body has finally had enough of all the pain killers....
Well, managed 100 lengths of the pool last night in under and hour which was good. So thats 170 this week so far, hopefully means that I wont have to bust a gut tomorrow night! Can get away with 50-60.
I better bloody loose more than a pound this week! I have been really good this week, not used any of my exercise points (sorry, better explain, Weight Watchers, have lost 3.5 stone in the last year). I seem to be stuck at the moment. I just CAN NOT get under that blinking 15 stone!
I hate my genes!! All dad's fault! Mum is only a size 10! How unfair is THAT!
Oh christ, dinner with mother in law tonight......Not in the mood AT ALL for her! I am sure she will try and have a dig about not being asked to help clear Grandad's house.....She might find herself with mouthful from both Andy and I!
I am sooooooooo sick and tired of bloody Morph (code name for co-worker) sitting and grinning like something from the funny farm at his computer! He must think we are really stupid if he thinks we dont realise hes on MSN all day long and ignoring the phone and messing up his actual work. oh to be the Chairmans son hey?
Right, as that sounded really hypocritical, I better head off! Might be back later, depends on how the day pans out!
I have never had a blog before, so please bare with me while I feel my way about this! Sure I will catch on....
I could start by telling you loads of background stuff, but what the hell, lets get right into where my life is at currently!
My 84 year old Nanny killed herself in November of last year, no one of the family really knows why, other than she says she saw grandad (he died 8 years ago) and that he wanted her to be with him. Who are we to stand in the way of a 60 year love? She was a frail little thing, took an excess of her heart pills and that was it. Gone. My mother is a mess and menopasual, which can't help... Three weeks ago, my hubby's grandad passed away after very short illness. As my hubby is without his own father (who died 5.5 years ago), it has fallen to him to sort most stuff out with the help of his sister! Selling of the house, sorting of the assests etc.. And trying to deal with his more than demanding mother!!! (sure there will be more about her later!).
To cap all that off, three weeks ago (day before the death of afore mentioned Grandad) my 12 years old brother tells me that he is gay and been throwing up after meals.....GREAT...What a lovely conversation telling my dad about that one (by request of little brother, would never betray his confidence unless requested).
And the finishing cherry? I have a slipped disk in my back, for which I take 16 painkillers a day!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Hey ho! Never mind! I am really not one of these people that will fall to pieces and demand anti-depressants at times like this! I am a strong believer in mind over matter. No one HAS to fall apart in these siutations, surely we are all not nieve enough to believe that life is full of roses?!
Sorry, off soapbox!
Ohhhh, little good news, my 18 year old sister has just started to get into modelling, ok, maybe not good to all of you, as its GLAMOUR modelling, but I am so proud of her, she is such a beautiful young woman. I am not sure it will go too far as she is quite a big girl, well I say big, she's only a 12, but in the model world, I imagine thats quite big. We are a family of BIG, as no doubt I will scribe about at some point!!! (Size 16-18 myself!).
So, well thats where I am at in life at the moment...!
I can't imagine my life is going to excite may people, but its a little like therepy this isn't it!! haha
Well, better sign off today, as I am actually at work!!!!
