to be the one I'm on right now. I survived several days at my parents where the food you will always deny you eat when you're on a diet, was in obscene abundance. But I came out the other side a week later still 13 st 6.5lbs and relieved I'm on track.
Today I had the best day I've had in a long while. I spent it all on my own with the most amazing film you could ever wish to see. Finally the 3 dvd set of Jodhaa Akbar arrived and I had the divine luxury of watching it, in it's 209 minute entirety, uninterrupted. Two words is all I'll say............HRITHIK ROSHAN....
something that works for me and now the scales say 13st 6.5lbs (188.5lbs). I write on the calendar every day how long it is until I go away and as the days go down the figues on the scales seem to be going the right way too. Again this is what I have each day and having no processes food in the house is a revelation in more ways than one.
BREAKFAST Grapefruit juice Greek yoghurt & honey
LUNCH Carrot & coriander soup or any homemade vegetarian soup with thick slice of granary or seeded bread
DINNER Salad with cheese or fish
The other revelation about only having fresh food in the house is the amount of waste you can cut down on. Now I only have one waste bag a week to pit in the refuse bin instead of filling it to the top with mountains and mountains of ridiculous packaging. Honestly try it and you'll be amazed.
getting on the scales and seeing the figures go down by a half pound put a smile on my face for the rest of the day. The scales read 13st 7.5 (189.5 lbs) today and ideally I would like to have lost 14lbs before the end of October. Motivation and determination this week is very good and I hope and pray I can maintain it because there is so much I want to do that I just won't do now all because of my weight.
working this no processed food kick of mine, the scales read 13st 8 (190 lbs) & thank the Lord I can breathe in my uniform at work. I have nothing in my fridge but a huge variety of salad, grapefruit juice, skimmed milk & my lovely Brie ( seem to have gone off fish & I don't eat meat, so I couldn't think of another way to have at least a bit of protein each day).
A collegue at work who knows I never go out talked me into going out for a meal so I set a date of December 5th because it will take me that long to pysche myself up to it and lets face it lose some weight. I am also setting myself a challenge of having my photo taken on the night out and posting it here. So have a look on December 6th to see if I go through with it.
figures on the scales that is. I weigh13st 9.5lb today (191.5lbs), and I feel a brief (and hopefully sustained) glimmer of hope. I have only fresh food in my fridge, my freezer is totally empty ie no processed food at all. The food combination I mentioned in my last blog entry seems to be sustaining me and I have so many things in my mind that are motivating me to lose weight. I'm keeping everything crossed that I can maintain this so I can get the happy go lucky me back again and have some fun.
NOT TAKING my scales away with me & never weigh myself at any time other than first thing in the morning so won't know until tomorrow what I weigh. I enjoyed the short break holiday in Wales, and walked everywhere, something I can't face doing at home. The food at the hotel was amazing and it was a revelation to eat healthily, something I've not done in such ages.
I cried though; I hate myself as I am now and there was a really nice chap at the hotel who waited on us. It was embarrasing - I know at 10st 13 I would have had the confidence to make eye contact & chat to him but as I am now I could barely look in his direction when he was talking. I'm sure he thought I was being rude, but truthfully I was thinking how can I start up a conversation with him when he's most likely thinking "God almighty she's a bit fat and unattractive". So to that chap, I apologise you had the misfortune to have to look at me.
