...and again I haven't missed weighing myself. If every day was like this ie not being worried about being overweight it would be great; but I know by this time tomorrow I'll be feeling self conscious at work because my uniform is tight and everyone will be looking at the size of my big wide behind.
Doing a 10k walk this Sunday for the Genesis appeal and apart from going out to work this will be a rare venture out. I don't go out because I have nothing that fits me so until I lose weight having a life is on hold. I wonder if praying will help???
...my scales as much as I thought I would this morning, it was quite liberating not to go through the disappointment of not seeing at least a half pound loss - perhaps there is something to be said in not getting on the scales every day after all. Still when I get them back I'll probably be compelled to get on them straight away.
I've found after gradually going off meat in the past year or so (chicken, haven't touched red meat in years) I'm beginning to think I could maybe do without fish too. I now only have brown rice and wholemeal pasta after I read something about GOOD CARBOHYDRATES and weight loss.
A collegue at work was talking in glowing terms about how cheap it was to buy all her meat from an abbatoir when we were discussing how much things in the shops have gone up, and as she was talking I was getting awful mental images of animal flesh and blood splattered all over the place and felt quite queasy. My son is lucky if he gets meat at all now and rightly or wrongly I find myself saying at times "I'd rather not cook you a dead animal for dinner if that's all right". The idea of touching dead animal flesh and putting it in the oven has become repulsive. And what he doesn't know is for the past couple of years the chicken curry he likes me to cook isn't chicken at all, it's QUORN, and I don't think anything would be gained by telling him. When I casually suggested one night we have QUORN he practically vomited; so I think mum's the word!
Went to stay overnight at the parents and just come back now and realised I've left my scales there (I even take then on holiday with me!). So how I'll cope in the morning without them is anybody's guess. Maybe it's a subconscious slip telling me it's ridiculous weighing myself everyday or maybe because I'm fed up of not seeing the digits going in the right direction. Feel lost without them!
I weighed myself today and I'm 13st 5.5 so in a month since stopping the maple syrup plan I've gained 3lbs! So with a month to go until I go away for a short break with NOTHING to fit me, I'm back to doing what I did four years ago when the weight dropped off me fast. This is what I did then and what I will be doing until the end of May.
BREAKFAST Slimfast (chocolate of course!) 223 calories Cup of GREEN TEA MID AM Chocolate Option Drink 40 calories Piece of fruit OR a museli bar OR a low fat yoghurt 100 calories LUNCH Tin of BAXTERS soup any varietyup to 300 calories cup of GREEN TEA MID PM as mid a.m. 140 calories
DINNER Any meal you want eaten off a smaller plate no more than 9 inches across and NOT piled up like a mountain up to 460 calories (so a weight watcher meal and some salad is one example) cup of GREEN TEA
MID EVENING as mid am and pm up to 140 calories
Doing the above four years ago WITHOUT exercise I lost 2st 8lbs in 12 weeks but I know it probably won't have the same rapid effect now. Still at least it's a plan where you're eating regularly and having the slimfast is more convenience than anything. If you're not running around like a mad woman in the morning sit down with some wholegrain cereal and fruit.
Don't be disheartened if you're struggling, you're so not alone. Get in touch if you need someone to talk to x.x.x
I just replied to someones message after being away from my blog for a while and told them i still weigh 13st 2.5. So I though I'd get on the scales to check what I weigh in the evening and I weight 13st 5.5! So I'll see what the scales say in the morning.
I stopped the maple syrup plan after a month because my teeth were hurting and I was getting stomach pains. I could only put it down to consuming lemon and lime juice day in day out and too much acidity.
Anyway I've got a month till i go away and literally nothing still fits me. So wish me luck (as I wish everyone else luck who's struggling).
