Description : A quintessential look into a day in my life. I'm a crazy, sexy, cool, college chick with goals, dreams, and drama. Come read what's going on in my world!
Sup, I have been a naughty girl at work. I broke a major rule at work and was subsequently suspended for it. I did deserve the reprimand. It happened on Thursday (Feb 5). The actual date of incident was the day before. I can't disclose specifically what I did only that I had failed to follow a procedure. I felt awful about letting my direct manager down. She's rather nice and well-meaning. Because of the suspension I think the manager I have the hots for is pissed at me. The day of the suspension (prior to me being informed of the reprimand) I had walked over to ask him a question and he nastily replied I needed to go ask my manager. At first I was confused, so I rephrased the question in case he didn't understand why his imput was what I needed and not my manager. He repeated himself, but with more venom. I told him okay and walked away. Call me sensitive, but I was about to shed a tear because of the way the object of my affection replied to me. At first I couldn't figure out why he had been so snooty. I thought maybe he had gotten some sort of reprimand for fraternizing with me the day before (he had pulled my coat over my head and on more than one occasion he put his hand on me... ever so gently). But after my suspension, I think he was pissed because he may have decided to assist me in earning my budget for this month and with me being on suspension that just may not be possible. I could be way off the mark with my assumptions. It could be something else. Perhaps I let him down too. I know I felt bad about my actions. I am pride myself on being able to follow directions and adhere to rules and regulations. I have but two reasons for my actions. One, I was feeling out of sorts... I've been tending to a cold and I was very ill that day ( I couldn't afford a day off) . The other reason is I let my personal feelings get involved with my work. Those two obviously don't agree. I'll be sure not to let that happen again. I have a reputation to look out for. Besides the news about work. I am considering going back to work. Because of my suspension, I had some extra time to visit my alma mater that Friday. Two of my old professors encouraged me to come back. I believe I discussed one in particular some time ago. She is a little insane, but she made my college experience that more memorable. I think I may go back. I could really use my masters degree for teaching at a local college. More on that soon.
Sup, I have a lot on my mind folks. I'm still thinking about the impact my car accident has had on my life. My brusies are still there on both legs and while my mobility is getting better, its still limited. I thank God, my injuries weren't more serious. Within the three weeks of my accident, three people within a five mile radius were struck by a motor vehicle. I don't think any of them made it.
Some other things that's been on my mind is John, we have been hanging out and texting one another like the trend was going out of style. I can't help but feel there is some sort of disconnect. For example he lacks in the commitment department. Today is his b-day and for at least a week I had asked him if he had any plans.
He replied by saying everyone had been asking him, but he hadn't had any. He said he thought he might spend time with his son, but he wasn't sure. So i'm thinking why bother making plans with him if he has a fall back plan? I had even considered treating him to New York City and going to an upscale restaurant or going to see a play. But I wasn't about to make the arrangments only for him to say he wasn't going to be available or that he had other plans.
I hadn't bothered to purchase a birthday card for John because when I sent him one for Christmas he hadn't said thank you. Instead I sent him a cheerful birthday wish through a voice text. I told no matter who spent his b-day with, I hope it was fun. He text me later, saying thank you and he has spent it in the hospital with his nephew.
Call me crazy, but I don't believe him. I think his butt spent time with his homies and watched the Super Bowl or maybe went out with his estranged spouse. My instincts are usually on point. i would bet I am right about him and this weird dynamic we call a relationship.
Aside from the relationship roller coaster he has buckled me into, I still find myself staring at a manager at my job. When we are alone in the elevator (not often enough for me) I can feel this electricity between us. I am hesitant to say anything flirty to him because we take sexual harrassment very seriously here. And I would want to make sure things are mutual before I say something I can't take back.
Sup, Today marked one the most historic times my country has witnessed. I am pleased to have seen the first President that didn't look like the other presidents in the history of the United States. Hello Mr. President, Barack H. Obama!
Sup, Well ladies and gents, my country is about to embark on the journey of our next president. In three days, Barack Obama will be the first multi-ethnic president of the United States. I am blessed to be a witness this monmumental event. With that acknowledgment stated... I want to reply to the comments that were left from my last entry.
First, thank you for replying and for your honesty. I understand I need not to tell him, but there is an old saying... live each day of your life like it was your last... I would want to tell this person how I feel about them before I pass if it were to happen sooner than I pray. At the same time, I'm also thinking maybe there is a less romantic way of telling this person how I feel. Maybe I could thank him for being one of the most respectable upstanding men I've ever met. And tell him how I admire who and what he stands for and leave my romantice feelings out of it.
To be honest folks, I have thought hard about the my journet thru life thus far, so much so, I have decided to write a memior. Its rather hurtful and painful, but since I've never sought outside help. I think me writing this book will help me heal. I wish I could share more, but then I'm not the person to ask when you want to know the details of the latest movie.
Also to address another comment someone made about my last entry. I have thought about his wife. I have prayed for her and for him. I prayed they stay together and have a wonderful life together if God so wishes. I am not heartless and I DO NOT want an affair. I am not secretly texting him and having late night conversations with him. As a matter of fact, I usually speak with him face to face when he visits my family. I have NEVER been a home wrecker and do NOT plan on starting now. I am a woman of virtue... who feels deeply about a person who I think I have chemistry with.
I would let God guide him and his wife where they need to be. I would only want the same for me and my husband. I let God take the wheel. Once again, thank you for your honesty and no you didn't sound too harsh, you kept it real and I can appreciate that!
Sup, I almost told the married man that I had feelings for him. I just wanted to know if we would have started a relationship if he wasn't married. I know it sounds crazy, but he had text me to wish me a Happy New year and I just got to thinking maybe I should ask him. I had gotten the nerve and text if I could ask him a personal question. I waited for what seemed like an hour for a reply. As turned out I had waited ten minutes. I felt as though, if he hadn't replied yet, I shouldn't ask him. So I began texting him back, asking him to not think I had gone mad, but I had changed my mind about asking him. Before I could finish that text, my phone alerted me to a new text. I knew it was probably him, but I finished my text anyway. After completing the aplogy text, I checked my new messages. He had replied back saying he was on the road and asked me to call back later that night. And he followed that text with one asking if it was urgent. See... he is so attentative. But I replied, that it wasn't urgent and sorry for bothering him. Ahh ladies, if you could see this man. Although he is very attractive, I have never lusted after him. That tells me a lot. It means that I would want more than just a fling. I am glad that I didn't ask him. I don't want to compromise our friendship because of my curiosity. He may have never spoken to me again.
What would you do in this situation. I could really use some advice?
