Sup,
I have not been keeping entries as much as I want to, but I have been so busy with resolving issues, running errands, playing a new online game, and entertaining people to have taken a moment to write something. Forgive me ;-)

I have decided to leave my crush manager alone. I think its best that I leave that little fantasy alone and continuing to improve myself. I had to purchase new pants today because I am losing weight. I've read several blogs where the women want to lose weight and are trying all sorts of fast diets. I always advise diets are fads and lifestyle changes are needed. My advice may take longer, but if you follow my advice, the excess weight will stay off longer!

I am intentionally watching what I eat without restricting the things I crave. I just eat what I crave in spurts and in moderation. I have also become more active. And when I type active, I mean I do not over do it nor will you find me in the gym. Since my accident, I have not been able to go to my home gym, but I do work out at physical therapy. Aside from that, I walk my dog.

Some days I walk my dog for 30 minutes, while other days I just take him outside a lot so that I am moving. Because of my new routine, I am losing weight in a healthy way and loving the praises and rekindled attention. I have an idea of what size I want to be and will work on being consistent to remain that size and keep up the tempo.

ciao

Sup,
I have very little to report, I realized I hadn't been on for a while. All is coming along in my neck of the US. I've been busy doing some research and writing a book. I had meant to advise you of my latest endeavor, but I had forgotten. So far I'm about 60 page into the writing, I think I will end up with more pages as my editing continues.

I had to get a few clearances from my siblings about the book, luckily their only request was to leave their biological names out... done! So am going to spend more time writing and doing my research. I've also been entertaining the idea of going back to school. I just have to wait and see... there's a lot riding on it if I seriously want to go back.

I love news there is no love. Although I've hung out with this guy I worked with, I have no plans of making it serious. He's cool and I enjoy his company, so I'll keep it at that. Well its getting late, I'm hungry, and I my wrist is hurting, as is my back and knees. I would have thought my injuries from my accident would have gone by now, but they have not. I still have the bruises on my legs (grr). I really thought they would have gone away by now.

I have some other personal things I need to work out... its bothering me, but nothing I can't handle. Over the years I have grown a thicker skin and have learned to disgard the negative energy in a healthy way... so all is good.

ciao

p.s. I've inserted a pic of me on St. Patty's Day ;-)

Sup,
I've gone through some changes in the past week. Some info I will share. I just celebrated my birthday three days ago. A co-worker (Jason) treated me to lunch and to the movies. We saw "Watchmen." To be honest, the movie was okay. Nothing to rush to the theater to see. I would say way for the DVD, but the movie is rather long... not Titanic long, but nonetheless... long.

After the movie, J and I went to have a couple of drinks and play pool. From there we came to my home and watched a documentary and then a classic, "Cape Fear." From there I arranged for him to get a ride home and I pretty much called it a night. So if you're wondering, I did have fun!

I have considered a career change in lieu of some changes at work. Stay tuned for more info about that. I bumped into my crush manager on my way home from physical therapy. Let me tell you how: I had gotten a late start that morning, in turn I headed to PT later than usual. After leaving PT I had to stop by the cell phone store to replace my sim card (the card that stores my phones address book and other account info) because my phone refused to send text messages.

After leaving the store I head to the train and thus got on. By the time I reached my destination I looked at the time to see what bus would take me home. I could have summoned a ride, but I didn't feel like it. After checking the time again I realized my crush would be enroute to my location since he had to catch a train to get home.

After a little consideration, I thought maybe he had arrived before I did and was already waiting for the train. Just as I was about to walk in the direction of his train my crush walked passed me on the other side of the waiting area. I called out his name, he did a semi-turn, saw me, reached for a train schedule, and walked over to say hello while getting a ticket for the train.

I made small talk while he purchased his ticket. I told him if I knew I was going to bump into him I could have returned the book I borrowed. But that remark made no sense, because I have yet to finish the book (laugh). I realized he wasn't headed home but into the city. He told me see ya, and I replied I would be seeing him soon. He replied he bet I would.

I'm not really sure what he meant by that, he said it with a smile. Is that a plus? I have some ideas of how I want to handle things from here. I can't share them with you know because there is a bit of info I have yet to devulge. So you will have to wait.

ciao

Sup,
Hi there. I have less than a week to wait until I celebrate the date of my birth! I'm not overly excited, but just the same I am looking forward to it. I have not made any plans yet. I've kicked around a few ideas. My best friend asked me what did I want to do. To tell you the truth, I know what.... rather who I want for my birthday (lol).

Since I have not made any definitive plans, I am still fair game for just about anything. I am wondering if anyone at the job will get me anything. Last year no one got me anything. A few people said happy b-day, while a new guy on the job passed me a note that read Happy B-day. I thought his gesture to be sweet. But I was a little disappointed no one had gotten me a card. To their defense I did not tell many people. I more or less dropped a few hints and that was it.

This year my announcement was a little more subtle. One gal even suggested buying me a pair of earrings from a catalog. Her offer was thoughtful, but I really can not stand cheap jewelry. I may take her up on her offer any way since it would probably be worth more than if she were to put money in a company card.

In other news, I was not sure what to expect the day after I told my crush manager how I felt. I kept telling myself to keep it business as usual. I actually held it together, by not staring at him. I will say I felt someone hit my chair while I was looking at my computer monitor. I refused to look up, in case it was him. Then I noticed another co-worker with a similar outfit on as my crush and deduced he had probably hit my chair accidently.

Then I saw my crush walk past and because I had caught a peripheral view of the person, I realized it was him who did it. This was no accident. He did it again later that day. This time he had walked past me with a handful of envelopes. He purposefully hit my chair with them while walking past. In my head I'm like please do not tease me. I wanted to try and focus on work. How can I with him getting my attention so easily?

Early that afternoon I was scheduled to leave. I had completed the book I had borrowed from him. This time I walked briskly to his desk. Placed the book securely on his desk and said thank you. I heard him reply "no problem," as I walked away.

I asked this gal who sits opposite of him if she had completed a book she had borrowed from him. Although she was only half way finished she handed the book over. She said I would probably finish it faster than she could. I took the book and started to leave. As I did I overheard her tell my crush she had given me his book. He asked her which book. I closed the door to the office before I heard her reply.

I'm not sure why he asked which book? Does it really matter? I suppose if he had a problem with it, he could have stopped me. Or maybe he was just being a talking head. Meaningless convo.
Later today will be second time since my confession. I can't wait to report if he tried to get my attention again. I actually want him to. No. Strike that, I want him to do a lot more than that. Like ask for my number, ask me out for a drink. Something like that.

I know I am a hopeless romantic, but what woman isn't?


ciao