Sup,
First things first. I have a confession. I was layed off from my current job. I should have seen it coming since I was getting so few hours. I was angry for the first few moments after the call and then again when I explained things to my mom (or "mum" for you all). While it dissapoints me to have been layed off, my mom assured me that everyone has been layed off before. She said I was not above being layed off. I suppose thats exactly how I felt. I received a letter from corporate congradulating me on my outstanding customer service work!! I felt the letter was a mochery (did I spell that right?). However, I did decide to keep the letter. After all it wasn't corporate who gave me the ax and it was also proof that I was an amazing worker.
Looking on the bright side of things. I have filed a complaint against this company. I will not divulge the particulars because if the complaint becomes legal, I don't want any details circulating. Does that make sense? I've also found myself praying a bit more. I have been struggling ever since I graduated college. I thought my five years (years spent in college) of struggles were going to end once I graduated. My mom told me its suppose to go like this and the I will land the "right" job, which will turn into a promising career. But is she right?
In other news. I have ignored a few calls from Adam. I don't want to make myself too available to him... that becomes boring. I have successfully made him jealous (he told me so) when I three-wayed him in on a conversation with another man who needed help download pictures from his email account and then uploading them to his myspace account. He thanked me profusely and assured me we would talk soon. Right. Unbeknownst to me, this small jesture caused Adam to feel jealous. Although it was not my intent, it happened. Ha.
John has sent me a few cutsie message. I am not taking him seriously either. I'll come on strong once I get my shit in order. In the meantime he can continue to dote on me.
Hey if you've ever wondered why I don't speak of too many friends or why I am not in a committed relationship... you merely need to know where I live. I live in a suburb where most of my neighbors are 55+ or the young folks are severly laid back and I really don't get to see them unless they are walking their dog or going to the gym (neither of which happens that frequently). I thought it was just an excuse until a family friend told me he and his wife were considering moving back to the city to be closer to friends. They have lived in this community longer than I have and if they have made too many social connections then I know its not just me. Even my sis hands out with her hubby when she isn't working.
Ahh, one final addition to my entry today... I think I may be expecting. WHO'S YOUR DADDY?!?

ciao

Sup,
I must concede I am having a good weekend. I lazied around the house most of the weekend. However, my uncle came down and we saw the new Bruce Willis movie... Die Hard 3 (I forget the formal title). It was actually good. It had lots of humor and action to keep the viewer on the edge of their seat. I was also impressed by the good acting... Bruce still has it. It was also great seeing and spending time with my uncle. I will post a pic to this entry of him soon.
My sister's finance got himself in a pickle, I haven't asked her about it... but I figure she'll discuss it when she is ready to. One of my older brothers, the actor, has an audition tomorrow. I am super excited for him... its his 3rd audition in about one week. He already filmed a commercial for the 1st gig he auditioned for. I am praying he lands the next two as well.
My mom is has such tenacity... I love her very much. We spent some time together by watching some Discovery program on a lost Queen of Egypt. Those Mesopotamians were great people right?
In romantic news... my friend who wanted to start the love triangle is having some problems in the homestead. Her man wants to have his cake and eat it too. While he goes to work and comes straight home, he does not spend enough quality time with my friend. This past Friday was no exception... they were both off and he went out and did his thing until wee hours of the morning. I have yet to get an update on whats happened since then. Hmm and I think the wedding is in November... I suspect she may need couples couseling or pre-wedding counceling. I also suspect she may need to push the wedding date back. I am still hoping I can be a part of the wedding party. I just don't want to pay for a dress I may not get to wear. Am I right or wrong?
In other romantic news... Adam is still tolerating me falling asleep on him... he says he enjoys listening to me sleep and he stays on the phone for like an hour just listening while he does other things. I thought that was a lil creepy, but so what. So long as he's not diddling with himself or some other raunchy act while he's listening its fine with me. One thing that I need to do differently is the hour in which I stay on the phone with him. He doesn't get off of work until like 2,3 sometimes 4, in the morning. It takes him about two hours to get home. I am usually on the phone with him until he gets home and then he takes a shower and calls me back. I suppose I could speak to him during the day (when I am not at work) and then speak to him on his days off. Ah well. Happy B-day Reg(7/13)!!

Ciao

Sup,
First, do you like the color of my blog? It was the dark and drab color, I thought it would be fitting to switch things up since I hadn't changed much since I began my blog (two years in November by the way).
I am back to work... limited hours of course, I am going to make a formal complaint against this tyranny (did I use that word out of context? I can be such an air-head sometimes). I am supposed to work later this afternoon... if all goes well, I will be there.


Last night/early this morning, I spoke to Adam, I was not happy with him. Day before yesterday, I spoke to him and he said he would call me back. He never did. Yesterday he called me for like two minutes and then told me he would call me in one minute... I didn't speak to him until several hours later. I was a little teed... you start off full of steam and then just back off. I had feared we had been talking to one another way too much (everyday for hours at a time).


I left him a message saying I wasn't in the mood and that I was "done". I was ready to throw in the towel... I don't have time to play relationship games... especially given the circumstances in which I met him. When he finally called me back last night/early this morning... he kept asking me what was wrong. All I said was, "actions speak louder than words."
You see Adam keeps telling me how cool I am and that it was so unexpected for him to run into a person like me and that he was glad he had. He asked me what did I mean by that phrase and I told him to think about it. At the very same moment, I was practically doubled over in abdominal pain. I told him to hold on... I made a B-line for the bathroom.

When I returned to the phone, I reminded him that early on in our telephone venture, I told him that when I am in a relationship (although we are not in one) that I like to have my time and that I want consistency. He told me to say no more because while I had him hold he took the time to think about putting the shoe on the other foot and he admitted he would feel awkward if I had done the same to him. He then apologized for being insensitive.


What happened next was unexpected... he confessed that he was falling for me. At first we was like if we continue the way we are going, I can see this turning into love... then he stopped he told me he didn't want to startle me. I told him to say what he wants to say, that I wasn't going to laugh or be judgmental... I would just listen. Thats when he said he was falling for me. He really really likes my personality and he thought I was cute.
I told him about my fears... although he does not fit the "type" of guy I go for... I've put my relationship woes in Gods hands to work out and what's going to happen, is going to happen. I also told him that I am concerned about where things would leave us, if we met face to face and we did not feel the same way prior to us meeting. He told me regardless of whatever, he would want to be my friend.

We then got to talking about some other personal issues... like homelessness, struggles, goals, and the future. Afterward he told me thank you for opening up to him.
I actually felt better after our talk because before then, I was standoffish and he could tell. Ahh in other love life news...

I received an email from John telling me to call him. That was about 4-5 days ago. I finally called him last night, but all I got was the answering service. I'm not sure what to do about him.

What I do know is I am empowering myself to be a better person and to readying myself for all the blessings God is about to bestow upon me. I am thankful and I give thanks every day of my life. With each day I am blessed to walk this earth... comes new hope of living happily and at peace.

ciao

Sup,
I must admit, the time I have had off from work has left me utterly bored. I feel as though I should have spent time working on something more productive... like updating my professional website. I still may try to work on it over the weekend. But I return to work on Monday. I will update my blog the following day to let you know how it went.
Anyway...

I spent my Independence day with the family. We didn't BBQ or anything, just made some brisket, rice, and veggies. I went to see the fireworks, but it rained in my area and we were told that the fireworks were going to be postponed... so I returned home. On a late news broadcast, I learned, the fireworks show had actually taken place. Whatever.

I don't really have plans for the weekend. I would like to go to the theater to see the blockbuster summer hit, Transformers. I'm not sure if those outside of the US has heard of the hybrid creatures before, but I loved the cartoon as a child. My older brother even won a contest to win the leader of the autobots... optimus prime. Ahh the shyt we remember.

My love life is weird. I am still keeping in touch with John, we were suppose to hook up about two weeks ago, but when he didn't call by a certain time, I rolled and went to the movies. He emailed me late last night. He wants me to call him tonight after 9. **Intermission>>> listening/singing to Fiona Apples "Carion"<<<**
So I will call him. I changed cell phone carriers and have yet to give him my new number.... if you're wondering why he didn't just call me. But I think I know why we really haven't hung out... based on what I read on Sofem... he probably has another woman that he is dating. Once again, I am not going to take things to seriously. Its just a waste of my energy to do otherwise.

I must concede, I enjoy talking to Adam... although he isn't my type in the looks department. Since he is not ugly and has a sincere heart, I think we can at least be friends.

ciao

Sup,
I just wanted to make an entry to give my condolences to the people and the families of those injured in the terrorist attacks in the UK over the past couple of weeks. Remembering what happened in my country on 9/11 has given a greater perspective on life and our vulnerability as humans. I studied terrorism while in college and I know the act will never end. One man's terrorist is another's martyr and because of this perpetual ideology, terrorism will never end. RIP soldiers in the war and those lost during the acts of terrorism world wide. *Remember, ye who seeketh the truth, shall find it*

ciao