Description : A series of anecdote and observations. I hope some will make you laugh, others think, maybe they'll make you happy or sad. However it goes I hope you enjoy.
You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves. -Mary Oliver's poem Wild Geese
Life is so weird it just keeps on ticking.... I'm grateful for that even if I wish I could slow it down at times. I saw M last night. I still love M.
Work is driving me nuts, so busy and relatively stressful. Kids are with their dad but the kittens we recently got are driving me bananas and run around like insane miniature lions all the time. My big at queen hates them. Kids home tomorrow.
I can't believe it's over a week since I've contributed to the blog. Last week was busy at work, saw M on Thursday. Love M. Have told Z it has to be platonic or not at all. Have told G about M and agreed to be friends. Can't be all things to all men! And following my heart seems a good place to be. Of course it's scary but after thinking, reviewing, discussing, weighing up all the options, etc I really believe it's worth fighting for.
Enjoyable weekend. Children fun.
Saw friends on Saturday pm, really fun night. Ate way too much and felt like a greedy guts but can be well behaved this week.
College was good fun. Early days yet though. Weekend fine but kinda dull. Nothing exciting. Dilemma re G and Z. I must sort this out!!! Work very busy.
Saw M this morning. Why, when I try so hard not to, do I fall in love with him over and over again? In fact I never really stop. I try to distract myself and there he is, popping up in my brain at the most odd times. Like almost all the time. Randomly. He's in my morning tea, on my train in my ipod, sits on my shoulder at work, pops into meetings, in my handbag and always on my mind in the night. The nights are the hardest.
Thankfully back in London next week for the whole week. I've missed him way too much. Why does love hurt so much sometimes? Still so good to see him, chat and catch up on kisses that I'm already over it. I wish life were different sometimes.
Sigh. Friends help. Thank you all. No matter how confusing I am or how confused I get you're all still around. Love you.
First day of college tomorrow. Scared and excited.
Have done my extra sit ups and increased by another 20 this week. Hate them but like the effect. Think it's worth it, only takes ten minutes and dropped a full dress size.
Bought a new box of Yorkshire Gold tea. The best. Nothing else will do.
