at 13st 13 and you can't begin to comprehend the embarrassment and disgust I feel. Having said that there must be a million other women who feel like this but in my head I'm the only one who is fair fat forty1 and repulsive and has more spare tyres than a garage (joking belies the misery).
However some of the patients and some relatives were trying to guess my age and they all had me twenty to twenty three years younger than I actually am, and they all guessed independantly of one another.
to weigh myself today but am curious what the scales will say tomorrow. I vary from feeling totally disgusted with myself and my appearnace to waking up and thinking I can do this and giving myself a kick up the proverbial. I read that diet and health wise that cancer feeds on sugar so where sugar creeps into my diet I try to avoid it at all costs.....after all prevention is better than cure.
13st 12, I'd run out of green tea and now I'm convinced it keeps weight down. Stop drinking it the weight goes up, start drinking it the weight goes down gradually. Coincidence or placebo effect, I don't know but I'm carrying on including it as part of a healthy diet.
myself this morning which is either a sign of failing memory or a Freudian slip anyway, I can't recommend green tea highly enough and have had a few good days this week, mood wise, drinking it.
My guillty pleasure and salvation are BOLLYWOOD movies and if you need cheering up take a look at my photo albums on facebook and here for some gorgeous eye candy bollywood men!
outweigh the horrible taste. I find it best to let it go lukewarm then drink it down in one go. I recommend a double green tea if you're having trouble going to the loo but also if your feeling low it does give you a boost and you feel in a better mood. I drank three double green teas yesterday and had no low mood at all.
This morning the scales say 13st 9 and every time I think I want to eat something unhealthy I think immediately why I want to lose weight and focus on some goals and the confidence I'll get back when I can walk out without wearing a coat and hiding the body I'm ashamed of.
