up of living in a fat suit;I want to unzip it and jump out and have fun. Today I weigh 13st 11.5 and yesterday I tipped the scales at 13st 13.75. Cancer research gives diet tips based on healthy principals and it makes an awful lot of common sense. The things that stood out were to eat at exactly the same times every day and to stand and move about for ten mintues every hour if you live a relatively sedentary life. It's idiots guide stuff really but when you've lacked any sense of motivation for so long through being in a rut it's a mountain to climb just to get going on the basics. To think in 1989 I was the fittest I'd ever been and could run two miles in eleven mintues and now I get out of breath running up and down stairs ten times. I disgust myself sometimes, well most of the time.
torment myself as much as I do? After all when you're sat with someone when they get a diagnosis of agressive cancer, it dwarfs your own woes into insignificance. So rather than be self absorbed about being overweight I thought I could turn it into something positive and use my extra pounds into real extra £££££'s and raise money for the place I went to yesterday, a world renowned cancer hospital. I'm going to put the idea to everyone at work and hopefully they will support me.
Anyway I weigh 13st 11.25 today but ten minutes away there's a lady waking up with the knowledge she's got agressive cancer, so who am I to feel sad about the numbers.
day, 13st 11.5 again today. Got so much housework to do today and as I once read vigorous cleaning is just as efffective as an aerobic workout, hopefully tomorrow the scales will read less. I know there's nothing wrong with me apart from my weight, but I wish I could stop equating my worth with how fat or slim I am, because I don't think about anyone else in that context.
wretched day but seem to feel ok this morning. Weigh 13st 11.5 and would be happy to lose just 1lb a week if i could. Long to get back into all my lovely jeans, some I'd even forgotten I had. The day I can look in the mirror and see the me I want to see then I'll be happy.
not my favourite number at the moment, with the scales still at 13st13. Even knowing overweight women are an increased cancer risk doesn't seem to register, but as with every day tomorrow is another day and a chance to begin again.
