It's been a long time...haven't post anything. So, what's new here?
Have seen a lot places, have meet good and sad people...have so much to tell! Where should I start. Oh yeah, let me tell you...San Francisco was my first trip in America...it was amazing...what can I say...just breathtaking. Imagine The Golden Bridge 6 in the morning, cristal morning passing by on a motorcycle???!!! That's what I call excitement!! Seeing San Francisco in a different way than I ever expected, it was unbealiveable!! Not just that
I saw touristical attractions u would expected...but see the 'bad' side of this city also, was like watching pretty excited American movie. The entrance to this city through the Bay Bridge is so woooo...huge buildings araund you, not exactly what I expected but I realized this is called business center, and most of this 50 floor buildings around me were just offices. Waiting for my friend in Central station (I came with bus) was pretty frightening. For the first time I saw a real homeless and I was alone...my friend came a minute later and we drove on his motor cycle through downtown of San Francisco at almost midnight! He had a great idea...like in old movies, we came to the ocean and at exalctly midnight for the first time in my life I could touch the ocean...it was so cold and
windy but the fire on the beach made this moment so memorable. Than we went to his friends house. Finally, I realized huge cities in America are far away from glam and shine. We came to ill-famed part of this city and I saw more homeless people, locked door and unsafe streets. I meet guys that don't care what are they wearing or where will they sleep, those who didn't see 100 dollar bill in a long time. I spend a night on the roof of my friends apartment chating about everything...it was freezing but cool in a way. Next morning he took me to see all those turistical known attractions such as, Coit Tower(best view of San Francisco downtown), Pier where the Hard Rock Caffe and aquarium are. We wen't toHeight-Ashbury street which is known for hippys and their music, u can get a new cd-s for a low price in Ameba music store, u can finally see homeless who are honest and would admit they need a money for a beer. It was so funny to me when I saw guys with a paper saying thay really need a money for a beer so I did crazy thing, I took a photo of them hoping thay wont notice, but oh my Good...they did!! One guy started to run after me saying I owe him 2 beers for that photo. I was pretending he's wrong, but frightened in the end. My friend later said that was extremely stupid move. Ups, sorry I said! Later that night I was hoping we're going to move to this upper center where I can buy some cloth and visit my favorite stores such as Forever 21, Diesel, Bloomindales... I didn't spend that much money till I didn't come to Bloomindales and forever 21...in just one hour I spend more than I planned, but I was happy because for the first time in my life I could spend money I earned and buy things I usually can't afford. After I spent this money we went back to my friends parents house(nobodys there, they live in Vermont)because we were exhausted and we knew we have to leave San Francisco early morning if I want to make it on time for work. We watched movie and woke up at 5...we were going to spend about 4 hours on a motorcycle. At 6 I have seen the most memorable sight of my life, it was cristal morning and we were driving through The Golden Bridge. God! I wish we had a time to stop and take some photos..it was just mesmerizing!! After almost 5 hours for driving I was late for work, but I had an excuse...I had the time of my life in San Francisco:)

So now something complitley different, maybe dark side of me...things from my past that are still on my mind. And let me tell u it is not even a boy...IT IS A GIRL!!! U know that butterfly u feel when u feel inlove? Feels good doesnt it? Let me tell u my feeling was kind of like that when I meet this girl. Ready to be crazy if u wake her in the middle of the night, when they are all gone she is just starting...always smiling, no matter what...I finally found someone to spend my time with...just having fun, not wondering what may happen tomorrow. And I loved that, there was no drama, just pure fun...everytime we went out, even for a coffe. So, what happend? Jaleousy, of cours...for the first time I felt she had that feeling, always hideing it and pretend to be cool. But it just had to come out at last. See her ruining that fabolous picture of her in my head and acting like any other girl just made me treat her same as any other girl. This is my conffesion, I always have something 'smart' to say when it comes to relationships. And she really liked this guy, started to act silly because of him. As always, I just couldnt help myself letting her know she humiliate herself for a guy. Here I am, so insensitive and thinking that everyone should feel that way...And there was of course a third friend who just couldn't take the fact that somebody is just happy, so she started to making stories about me. Talking to my 'friends' telling how much she cant stand me. I moved away, as I always do when it comes to shit. But something was always there on my mind, not letting me forget about this one person who changed his opinion about me listening to her shit. So I did what I never do, I came and apologize for things I didn't do and those I did but just never had told him. And it was just a perfect moment, moment when he told me he realized how fake was she...just in much harder way. And still today, she is akting like an innocent queen saying hy, how are u? How is everything going, we should go to LA together maybe? That little crazy sweety it still somewhere on my mind and I dont wanna bealieve she is gone, so I call her when I got here. I guees I still cant let her go, till I dont sit and talk to her about things I felt at the time. Felt just bad for things I didnt do and said, but never had strenght to call her and tell her the truth. Now I just hate her because she is akting like nothing happened with me, but talking behind my back!

Here is new day, new morning, new thing...So many things on my mind, just don't know where to start. I just love that I came here, day by day I am making my dream come true...And isn't that just amazing? Every day I learn and experience something new and I just feel happy about that. Even small things makes me happy. Just a few days ago I was getting back from the lunch in a hotel and there was a wedding on hotel terrase. I just had to stop by and saw an American wedding. It was like in those typical American movies. Little girl was carying flowers and walking with a boy who had rings...I was trilled! I almost started to cry when the bride went down the aisle because it was such a touching moment. I never tought it is really like in those movies. But it is even more beautiful! Today there is family reunion here. It so interesting. All members of family in a same hotel just for fun? I guess thats normal here in America, but back home we don't have that opportunity to see that. I guess it is just different standard and here they can afford it. One other thing I've learned since I got here is that you learn best when you are just forced to do so. When you are on your own that is the best way to learn things. Lately it happens a lot to me. I just stay alone here and when I get a call I would usually transfer over my associate but this way I have to deal it myself. And I have learned so much since I've got here and I'm just proud of all things I've learned because it is surely going to be useful in my future career. Another thing I know for sure that I am stronger now than I was before. I am becoming independent living on my own. My first day in States was just awful because I have missed the flight from New York to Reno and had to spend night in airport. But it wasn't just that what was on my mind. Also I have done the major mistake by coming here not knowing where I'm going to stay. I had 1000 dolars in my pocket had to pay penalty for another ticket. Didn't know how much money will I need for a first month. Will it be enough? I felt terrible also because outside of those glass windows of the airport was the city of my dreams and I couldn't go explore it just because I knew if I go there I will be even more sad because I can't afford those shiny things in a city of my dreams. So, what did I do? I sat down and cry. What else could I do? And don't feel sorry for me, I have surely learned my lesson. And let me tell you, it helps when you cry. You feel hopeless and you just naturally start to pray. Who else could possibly help me but one and only God? No one, because ther is none of your friends, your family, you are on your own because you have made this decision. Do I feel sorry for making that decision. No way, I never regret my decisions. I just try to pull the best I can from already hopeless decision and hope that tomorrow will be much better. And let me tell you, tomorrow was brighter, sun was shining, airplane was flying in right direction, people became friends and far place on the map became my home for a while. I can not say it wasn't hadr, but look I am still alive! So what have I learned this time? What doesn't kill you, it makes you even stronger! Great lesson.

Hey there...a lot of new things going on here. We have a new associate Courtney from Washinghton D.C. and she is only 21 so I'm happy to have here a person who I can talk to...She just graduated from college of service management which is similar to mine. She is so cool, at the end of first day at work she was ready to answer any phone call without help of Mario. Mario is our treiner and it took me 2 days to answer the phone without his help. I think it is because her first language is english and sometimes it is really hard to understand people on the phone. I must confest that little jaleousy inside of me. She is already friend to everyone here like she know them for a long time. She came yesterday but today I just talked to her for half an hour and she is such a nice girl. I hope we will work in the same shift. Oh I was to trilled today when one lady who is staying at the hotel called to check her messages and the message was from her boyfriend says...I love you, have a nice stay, Ryan...oh I just wish my boyfriend Tin was here...I miss him a lot! We had a few smoke alarms today going on, thanks God I didn't have to deal with it. Yesterday I went to Reno with Mario and I bought camera. It is pink Sony camera and I Mario had to drive from one store to another to get this pink one because I wanted it so much! And it was okay for Mario, he didn't bother at all and I tought of my father who would be really mad to drive me all over the town. This is my second shopping since I went here. First one was just few days ago when I bought two shorts and top. Next thing I plan to buy is apple computer but first I gotta make some money!

So this is the reason why I came here, this is my summer job and my cooperative education. American College of Management and Tehnology is my college and I just found it appropriate to do my co-op here. Although most of my freshman friends find it crazy to go abroad after freshman year I just couldn't wait to go to America. Even while I was little child I always dreamed of Big Apple, Miami beaches and glam of Hollywood. Maybe looks like a childish dream but it didn't disappear even 10 years later and I felt such happiness when I got a chance to make my dream come true with barely 19 years old. I was always that kind of girl walking above the ground and though how everything is possible. And let me tell you, I still do. Everything is in your mind, how hard you try and how patient you are. Use your imagination to design a dream, but don't lose your touch with reality. Think that is the receipe of the hapiness. Always wish what you thing is possible to achieve. That way, you will never be dissapointed. That is how I do and I find it my greatest attribute. No matter what my mother just to say that I got everything I ever wanted, I always say it is because I always wish things I can get. Even when I thing there is pretty small chance to accomplish things on my mind I try hard till I don't see there is no any other option.
So, here I am...making my dream! Today is my second week at work and I work at the front desk (operator) at Resort at Squaw Creek which is a four star hotel in Olympic Valley. Last week I had a training but now I am fine and just doing my thing. My job is basically answering the phone calls and transvering them to different departments of a hotel. I do check-ins in computers, wake up calls and providing informations about hotel amenities.
This morning I had my first professional meeting with menager of front desk(btw nobody can't stand him) and I was so excited. It was like in those american "Crime Scene Investigation" movies when they all gather and discuss about case. But we discussed about room occupancy for next two days. At the end menager looked at me and asked me do I have anything to report, and I was like"no, I guess not"! What a shame, everybody looked at me and I was getting red. But soon everything was over and I could do my job. Sometimes this job gets really interesting when people call for some nonsense or scream at you. Just a few days ago one lady called almost crying that there are some bugs above her bed and asking for help. I almost started to laugh but the problem was that she had some kind of allergy so that is why she was so upset. There are also some difficult situations too, when guest calls for emergency. Just three days ago one of our guests had a heart attack and thanks God I wasn't at work because I would be terryfied. I almost forgot to notice my commendation card I got for typing manually guest check-ins in a computer. I got chocolate too and if I colect 5 of this cards I will get a free gift. I could get a day in spa. I would love that...